新しい挑戦へ

〜イギリス赴任日記〜

2000年9月11日


赴任から約2年と9ヶ月目の日記（後編）。徐々に地に足の着いた考え方になっているようだ。

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2000/09/11　「新しい挑戦へ向かう時期」

Do I need to learn anything about management and to establish my own company?
1. Accounting
2. Financing
3. Marketing management
4. Human resource management
5. Conflict management
6. Market information
7. Technology information

What can I learn from my current job?

Accounting, Financing from researching the annual report of carrier. Marketing management from researching the UK local carrier market. Market information from daily work dealing with carrier. Technology information from WEB page. Above all are knowledge. I can learn it if I study or experience it. However most important thing to achieve yourself is to make person happy, to manage the person happily.

On the other hand, there are always conflicts as far as human is thinking about their happiness. It’s not avoidable. Then what shall I do? What is your goal? What do you want to do?

I’d like to see the new world because I can’t find out my way within my experiences so far. Maybe this is the time to get into new world I don’t know. See person and see the core of the world. There may be many thing I shall learn but before start it, I’d like to see what kind of world over there at first and judge whether it’s the way for me or not. I’d like to move forward without clear stance.

To establish the clear stance, I shall see many people who knows what I don’t know, There shall be many worlds I don’t know.

I now decided that I will speak to Roger about my honest feeling and I ask his advice. I can tell him what I can do but I can’t tell him what I’d like to do because I don’t know everything and there must be the world I don’t know. At least I can tell him is that I’d like to join the US company to learn what is management of US company and to meet with race who is advancing the world. What I can do is to be manager of Network section and project manager for network deployment and expansion.

I just have read through the previous diary and I realized I have changed on the important point. I was saying I don’t blame anyone for the result of my job but I realized I am doing it now. Why have I changed and when?

I don’t like to speak ill of someone but I can guess the reason. It’s coming from the typical this company's way of business. Usually this comnany's manager, especially elite, is trying to avoid to accept the job having the potential problem and try to pass that responsibility to the other. It is coming from trying to protect their department. If there is a lot of staff to deal with current job or new boring job, it’s no problem because that organization has enough resource to afford that job.


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『その当時を振り返り』

目指すスタイルでマネジメントできる会社を作るためには、その会社の事業をまずは考えなければならない。

今の自分の環境では、それを見つける事ができないと思い込み、視野を広げるために新しい世界を見ることが必要だと考え始めている。しかし、新しい世界は知らない世界であり、知らない世界だけにそこで何が得られるか分からない、ということで人に話を聞こうとしている。結果的にその矛先をその当時ものすごい勢いで成長していた米国に求め、私は翌年本当に米国に行くのである。

また、過去の日記を読み返し、人の事をよく言わない人を嫌っているにも関わらず自分も日記の中でよく言っていないことに改めて気づく。。。

そして、またしてもその矛先は会社組織が持つ文化のせいだとしている。言っていることは間違ってはいないのかもしれないが、やはり、まだまだ若く自分の感情をコントロールできておらず恥ずかしい限りだ。。。

そして、この日記は翌日にも続くようだ。