所属部門の課題

〜イギリス赴任日記〜

1998年5月6日


イギリス赴任から5ヶ月がたったある日の日記。

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1998/05/06　「所属部門の課題」

Today I’d like to mention about our company problem.

Our company has many many problem, I think. It is difficult to explain the problem of whole company at first. Therefore I try to mention small problem regarding to our division. First of all our division have only one director who promoted to Vice president as well. The point is there. He managed two division’s work. First one is the research division and another one is the Global network division which I am belonging. To be honest, he can’t manage these two division, especially Global Network Division. It means we don’t have conductor of our division. No one manage our division’s work. It is making big problem in our division. Everybody do their job in their own way. It is making confusion against us and our counter person like AM of carrier and vendor.

On the other hands, it make the situation that our work doesn’t have the limit and our staff can’t go back home by themselves judge. In addition, our director ,Vice President, like the person who leave the office so late. It doesn’t depend on the quality of work. This is very bad culture of our division, I think.

Now I try to change this bad culture by my own action. Concrete saying, I try to complete my job as soon as possible and leave the office as early as possible. Of course I mind I leave the office after I finished my job. If I do like that, main problem doesnot go away. Because we doesn’t have each own decided job. Only the person who is liked by director get the job and he care of them. Automatically almost people try to do what director like. But it is not normal situation. Unusual!! This makes many bad result like everybody lose the right way to do something. It cause not only personal problem but also atmosphere. I keep on trying to change this bad atmosphere. And I keep my style. I don’t suit someone who don’t match my own way.

If I keep my own way, there is a possibility that director hate me. But it’s OK. Because I follow only my word. Unless I follow my own word, I will be disappointed to me in the future absolutely. But it is very difficult to keep on working in our division……


Anyway I have to keep on working under such circumstances everyday, also tomorrow, the after tomorrow and more. But I am not only disappointed everyday. I change the way of thought. This is one of the ordeal that I have to climb over. If I could climb over this ordeal, I will find the new way on my way in the future. I believe this.


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『その当時を振り返り』

かなり、痛烈に上司の悪口を言っているのが恥ずかしい。（当時の関係者の皆様、趣旨を理解いただき、どうかご容赦ください。。。）最初の日記で書いている通り、日本人のあまりよくない職場慣習である「自分の仕事が終わって上司がいると帰らない。」「上司も早く帰った社員をあまりよく言わない。」そして、皆が必要以上に遅くまで仕事をするようになる。ムダに残業をする雰囲気を嫌っていたこと、上司として自分の好みで人財を評価をすることに違和感を感じていたこと、そんな環境でも流されることなく自分の行動で部の雰囲気を変えようとしていたこと、など今の自分の考え方、行動に通ずるものがある。人の本質は時が流れても変わらないということか。

挑戦の中で壁にぶつかり、いろんなことを考えながら、結局は自分が行動し続けるしかないという姿勢を貫き通していくことはとても苦しく、難しいがきっとその先に何かがあると確信があったのか、それと単なる若さか。

この職場環境だけみるとまるで非常に古い日本の会社のようであり、とても場所がイギリスとは思えない。取引先の担当者はイギリス人、一歩オフィスを出ればイギリス人だらけであり、言って見ればそこだけ別世界だったんだろう。そして、そんな雰囲気では現地採用社員が違和感を感じて当たり前だったんだろう。